“We have a show stopper here! This strong young man is clueless in regards to his looks and abilities which makes A even more charming! He is sporty and playful and prefers loud, chewable toys the most! He rolls over easily and shows an inquisitive quiet side periodically!”
I absolutely loving hearing about A! However, when I got the update from Mary, I responded back with 'it makes me miss him even more'. Since then, I've been wondering how I can miss him when I've never met him.
I miss him because he's been growing in my heart.
I miss him because I've loved him for a year - even though he's only 6 months old.
I miss him because I've been imagining who our child would be for a long time.
I miss him because he's our baby.
Tonight has been a difficult night for me. (These really have been few and far between for me. I have a tendency to look on the bright side of things.) But, tonight I've not been able to go to sleep. I keep wanting to know more information about our little boy. I feel like I should be able to find out more about him. So often, any time I need to find out about something I pull up Google and type in my request. I can't do that with our situation! When will our court date be? When will we finally hold Eli? I'm praying it's soon. I'm praying that our court date is soon and successful.
12 comments:
Awww, this post is so touching. I can already tell that you are a wonderfully sweet mother. I'm saying little prays that your court date is right around the corner...
Cindy
My heart aches for you. I hope you have all the answers soon. I can't wait to hear about a court date and am fervently hoping it will be successful the first time around.
Kerri and Ruby
I'm praying with you. Babies were ment to be with mommies and daddies. And mommies and daddies were ment to hold their babies.
So many unknowns... this was the hardest part for us, too. Waiting is just so hard. You are in our prayers...
love
becca
I have been guilty of wishing google could just answer all my "unknowns" too! Ahhh! Here's hoping the time flies until you are holding sweet baby A in your arms!
I LOVE YOU. THERE IS NOT A WORD THAT COULD DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY I AM FOR YOU AND BEN AND THAT BABY BOY!! :) WAITING IS SO HARD. SOMETIMES IT'S ALL WE CAN DO, AND IT STINKS!!! AT LEAST YOU HAVE THE HOPE OF KNOWING WHAT'S IN STORE!! I CAN'T TELL YOU HOW HAPPY I WAS TO SEE YOU!! I MISS YOU A TON. LOVE YOU SO MUCH! :)
Ahhh, I hope your court date comes soon.I can't imagine how hard that part of waiting is!
Praying that your court date comes quickly. It is so hard and unnatural to be so far away from your baby. Know that he is getting wonderful care in the meantime!
Oh I'm so sorry... I hope today is a little bit easier on your heart... I don't know what else to say, you've been so patient throughout this process and your time will come. I can't wait to see pictures of you finally holding him!
I hope it will be soon as well!! I am jealous about pre-blog union!
Springfield where? I wish we would have known about this! How did I miss it?
Reading your post took me back to the exact same feelings I had waiting for the courts to reopen and longing for Maryn and Keller. It's hard for everyone to understand why the wait is so hard but I do understand and I so happy that your long wait is coming to an end!
I was just looking at "the list" and saw your court date!! WHAT!! I rushed over here to check, woo hoo. Finally! I'm sure you'll be in that 30%.
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